Home in the Hollywood Hills, after 3 lovely days with my parents and my brother and niece and my parent’s new dog, Blackie! What a darling she is! My parents saved Blackie from a “kill” shelter in January. This sweet little “mix” got so attached to me while I was there. She was crying when I left! I was crying on the inside . Outwardly, I was upbeat, as always….putting on my brave face for my mom and dad. I don’t want to ever cause them any worry or stress, but I hated to leave them. Home has been so stressful lately. In fact, I want to be their rock, someone solid who will be able to take care of them someday…So far, I’ve made kind of a mess of that. Instead of a solid rock, my life feels like a sinking ship, more and more lately…I guess a lot of people can relate to that…
Anyway, I’m not hear to complain! In fact, I need to stop and smell the roses more often. I need to open my eyes and see how blessed I really am. I have beauty surrounding me. I have wonderful parents and siblings and a gorgeous niece who turns to me for guidance (YIKES, that is scary!). I have 3 beautiful dogs…3 dogs I babysit who live in the gaybourhood and I they are little angels! I have amazing friends who are there for me…(and some who aren’t always there for me, but nobody’s perfect!). Sigh…I have a great life, but whenever things go wrong, it’s easy to see the wine glass as half empty (or more like empty), rather than half full.
I’ve taken the road less traveled, that’s for sure (you can read about it in my BEDTIME STORIES chapters on the site). In fact, I feel as though I’ve paved this road in a lot of ways. There must be a purpose in my life and a reason I’m on this road. I’ve met so many people who’ve touched my life in such positive ways…people that I would not have met if I’d taken the straight and narrow road. “WHAT IF?” I don’t even want to think “what if”…I’m where I need to be. (Does it sound like I’m trying to convince myself?) Yes, I’m sure I am where I need to be in life. Yes, I’ve made mistakes and I do need to make positive changes, and that is something I will always strive to do. Hey, to those of you who know me personally, THANK YOU for touching my life. I hope you feel the same. For those of you I have not met, but come to read my diary, I hope in some way that I have touched your life and brought some joy, or at least some entertainment through my work as a wrestler, whether it be my competitive matches, my semi comp scripted wrestling, my fetish videos, and all the crazy antics that I get up to (all readily viewable on this site!). Les Femmes Fatales Productions…my creation, even though half of you still can’t pronounce it correctly or spell it! Hee Hee! That’s why I’ve made things easier for you. You can just log in at Fightbabe.net and it will bring you here, too.
OK, let’s talk about something else…This weekend I watched “Marley and Me”, a family film since I was with my parents and my niece. Ok, it’s not a great film but it’s entertaining enough and I loved the dog (Marley) and all the crazy things he got up to. I guess anyone who ever had a puppy can relate to, at least, some of the naughty things this little rascal did! I laughed a lot. And I like Owen Wilson and the character he played…but I had to leave the room and make myself busy in the kitchen, doing something else, so as not to cry when Marley became ill and eventually died. I don’t think anything has ever been more painful in my life as when my dear Harley was diagnosed with cancer (2 years ago at Easter time)…The shit I put her through, trying to save her with chemotherapy, etc. Excuse my language, but there is no better way to describe what she went through and the stupid and outrageously expensive choices I made…and I couldn’t save her. The oncologists knew we couldn’t save her. They were never there to speak to me about her condition after a treatment. Funny, two years later and I still can’t write about it without crying…so change of subject…
Check out the “new” update…“Gert’s Challenge”!!! This is not a new video, it is an archive video which for some reason unbeknownst to me has not been on the website for a very very long time. This was probably filmed about 12 years ago. I wasn’t expecting “Gert” to show up and give me a competitive match as this was supposed to be a fantasy video, but it turned into a real competitive fight when Gert wasn’t going along with the script. I ended up very very angry (you can see it in my face! I even scare myself when I’m angry!) The guy who is “Gert” in the video is actually an actor friend of mine and he’s gone into movies and tv roles since (and actually had a series in the UK previous to moving to LA and had a very prominent role in a tv series here after the video was made). I will not disclose his true identity, but if you look at him closely, you might recognize him! Anyway, I think dear old Gert was being driven by some method acting during out video shoot!! I wanted to “kill” him on the day, but it made for a GREAT VIDEO!! Check it out!! Members, you can see the clips and everybody can buy the dvd or a download of this Fabulous Video!
OK, enough of me blabbing for one day! I’ve got to take 4 dogs to the canyon for some exercise!
A new chapter of “Bedtime Stories” just went up and is ready to view FOR MEMBERS ONLY! Clips4sale Stores are constantly being updated so go take a peek there. http://www.clips4sale.com/store/5022 and http://www.clips4sale.com/store/4885 and http://www.clips4sale.com/store/5942 and http://www.clips4sale.com/store/5976 for lots of great clips of Robin!
And my video store on this site is always being updated with great new stuff! So enjoy!!! Always feel free to email me at fightbabe@gmail.com!
One more thought before I sign out! I LOVE YOU GUYS!!
Peace and Love,
Robin xxx