Hi Everyone!

I can’t believe April is more than halfway over! Where does the time go??? Wasn’t I just 5 years old, not that long ago.

5 years old. I remember 5 was the turning point…the beginning of stressful situations. Having to leave the nest for part of the day and go to kindergarten. For me that was so stressful. I didn’t want to go to school. For me it felt like an unsafe place. I wanted to be home with my mom. We lived in the midwest when I was little (actually moved to West Texas when I was 6). Winters were very, very, cold in the midwest (well, they still are!!) and my mom walked me down to the school bus where I waited with the other kids. She left me there and I decided not to wait. I walked back to our apartment and knocked on the door. My mom was shocked to see me there. She let me stay home that day. I remember feeling so relieved to stay home….Of course, I had to go the next day, but once in a while, a little comfort feels very, very, good.

I didn’t like kindergarten. Kids made fun of me because I couldn’t pronounce the “th”. I would pronounce it as an ‘s’. I still have a very small lisp if you listen closely. Maybe because of my overbite from sucking my thumb when I was a kid. Oh yes, I loved to suck my thumb and hold my blanket which I called my “mimi”. The smell of my mimi was so comforting…I loved that mimi. And I loved my thumb! I could go on and on and on about my life when I was a kid, but it might not be very interesting to you! You know how I can go on and on…..I should get back to my Bedtime Stories for those of you who enjoy hearing stuff like this!

Lately, life is making me very uncomfortable, just like kindergarten did. I know the economy is very bad. Many people are suffering from it, including me. I should have prepared myself a bit more when I made decent money, but I didn’t. I took it for granted. Now wrestling websites are a dime a dozen and you can find all the material you want for free (including my videos) on YouTube or other sites. Sometimes fans post videos because they like them, not understanding that everytime you give something away, it is harder for a producer like me to make money. In the beginning, I took all the money I made and put it back into my business. My huge catalogue of videos confirms this. I made videos with my friends who needed money and tried to make videos to please every fan of every genre. Those days are over….I live month to month these days. I try to do customs which are few and far between. I try to do competitive sponsored matches which help cover the costs and then make a profit from sales. But the sales aren’t cutting it. I have a great webmaster who has stepped in and he works for nothing! That saved the site…otherwise there would be no site. So thank him. This is how bad things are.

As much as I love wrestling, I think the time has come for me to find another way to make a living. That doesn’t mean I’ll give wrestling up…but at the end of this year, it will have to be a part time business….I’ve seen this coming for a long time. I love my life and I love producing and wrestling and training…but I see myself losing who I am. I have lost my love of life and my sense of humour. Too many hard knocks. I get up and brush myself off and think I can make it work, but times have changed…just like they changed when I had to start going to kindergarten. I have to face up to reality….just like everyone else.

On that note….as I blabber on and on like I do…IS ANYONE AT ALL INTERESTED IN SPONSORING THE UPCOMING MATCHES WITH LIA LABOWE???? She has stepped out of retirement and has agreed to wrestle competitively with Ariel X and me on May 2 and so far I have 4 sponsors!!! Here’s the deal, no sponsors…no matches…I’ve got enough to cover (almost) the match between Ariel and Lia…so please email me if you are interested. I think they are very exciting matchups, and ones that you’ll want to see!

OK, guys…enough of my blubbering for now….

I love you all….Thank you for coming to the site! Especially the members and those of you who do buy downloads and dvds because you keep this going!

Peace and Love,

Robin xxx

PS And if you can’t or prefer not to sponsor the match, become a member, or buy some of the material, please give someone a hug or an animal some love…it makes a difference…xxx